Flares

OUCH! The pain can be so overwhelming at times. How do you stop your bladder from hurting? Well I could take a pain medication if I was given one, but the doctor won't allow that. I have to learn to work through the pain as bad as it may be. Today I honestly feel like someone has stabbed me in the back and are pouring acid in my bladder. The pain is just everywhere and I can't stop it. I have to think of something else get my mind off of it before I can call it quits. I can't help but wonder how people deal with it. I want to get better I do, but there are so many things an always have to worry about with IC. I mean who would want a bladder that looked like this:

I really don't want mine to look like that but it does. I have one of the worst cases my doctor has ever seen. I take my medication everyday every 8 hours that way I’m on a schedule and don't forget to take it. But when the pain is like it is, all I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry. There have been some times when I wanted to go to the hospital because the pain was so bad. At times I just don’t know what to do. This pain is something no one should go through. I would rather me breaking my arm compared to this pain. With the flares that I get it also makes me feel like I have to use the restroom a lot more. It’s just that feeling that is there, like you just drank a gallon of water. Because I constantly feel like I have to “Pee” I miss out of a lot of things. Like the teacher talking in class about a project or being at work and saying you’ll be right back when really you don’t have to use the restroom. Everything about IC is not fun in general, but it’s the way my life is now, and it’s something I have to work through every day and for the rest of my life.